Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Summer

How can my summer be nearly gone?!

This summer has been...interesting.

I've had fun and done some great things, but in my personal life I've had a lot on my plate.

The highlight of the summer has definitely been the trip to Florida. My boyfriend and I went to Universal Studios, but more specifically, we went for Infinitus 2010 and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. Yes, we went to a Harry Potter conference. Yes, we are that big of dorks when it comes to Harry Potter. And it. Was. Awesome. Fantastic! Totally worth it! And we are already trying to plan for LeakyCon 2011 next year in Orlando. More about that trip to follow, it definitely deserves its own post with lots of pictures.

At the end of July we took our annual camping and whitewater rafting trip for my boyfriends birthday. Camping was a ton of fun, we met up with some friends and had a great spot to camp at. Rafting was nice, but not the excitement that I usually prefer. We did get to see a bald eagle on our rafting trip, which was exciting- my boyfriend had never seen one before- I haven't seen one since my last trip to Alaska. I also saw an antelope, it was beautiful, I've never seen a wild one before!

Those have been our "big" events, but it seems like every weekend has been filled with some family or friend obligation or another. I've had very little true down-time, which is a bit disappointing.

Needless to say, I'm not ready for the summer to end. I love the nice weather and long days. I love not being burdened with both school and work. I haven't accomplished pretty much anything that was on my mental to-do list.

I've been struggling a lot with some personal issues, and I'm actively trying to get things under control, or at least work through them. This is not easy, and I'm sure that it will not be a quick process, but one that will hopefully pay off in the end.

I'm very conflicted about whether to continue my schooling at the moment. I am just so tired. Tired of juggling school and work. Tired of being a student. Tired of all of the work and energy and time that school requires. Of course, I would much prefer to just be a student and not work, but unfortunately, that isn't currently an option. Additionally, in the back of my mind is always my internal debate about the time and money to get my masters degree when I have a very strong desire to someday be a stay-at-home mom. Is it worth it? Is it better to do that now or later after my (future) children are in school? Of course, I know that schooling is easier to complete without a family to worry about or juggle. But, if I take on all of this schooling and training and student loan debt, I won't really have the option to be the stay-at-home mom that I would like to be. If anyone else has dealt with a similar situation or decision, I'd love to hear from you and how you made your decision.

So, in a nutshell, that's been my summer. It has been both great and fun and relaxing and also not everything (or as long as) I'd hoped it would be.